well, this morning i straightened my hair cuz i had planned on going to class after missing a week n half due to being sick. i took my glasses off so i could put hairspray on without spraying my glasses cuz that's hard trying to get that stuff off ur glasses. went to pick up my glasses and the screw fell out of one side and my ear piece fell off. couldn't find either one. since i've been so stressed lately, i just started crying. i pretty much had a mental break down and started throwing shit everywhere. the kitchen was tore up when i was through. i was so pissed off that i was shaking.

i'm so tired of everything bad happening to me. what did i do to deserve being shit on every day. and i literaly mean every day something bad happens to me. i cant remember the last time something good happened to me. then everyone wonders why im in such a pissy mood all the time. if you were NEVER happy, wouldn't you be a little irritated too? i'm tired of trying. i wanna quit everything. i think thats what life is trying to do. make me quit. it's going to win. you cant fight destiny. i was obviously destined to be miserable. i won't put up with it. either some serious fuckin miracle happens by the end of this week or i'm never leaving my bedroom again. i will dstarvve to death. what the fuck is the point. i am not working my ass off and caring anymore, jusdt to be let down over n over n over again. not worth it.